Normally I post my most recent ideas and WIP's but seeing that I'm literally at the bottom of the depression barrel this week I have found it hard to really focus on my work at all. In fact most of my more recent and ambitiously-pursued projects have just hit a brick wall.
While typically most artists feed off of depression, by painting their deepest emotions and feelings. For some, the depressing ghosts that follow them throughout their lives eventually catch up to them. It seems like usually depression takes out the best of them and thus ending their lives in a poetic yet terrible way.
Van Gough lost the love of his life and then cut off his own ear. There are actually dozens of masters who have just ended their lives like: Rembrandt or louis-leopold, and even Van Gough... shot himself in the chest... this is after he cut off his own ear and that's only to name a few.
But what is the cause of this. I think artists on a feeling level are just more prone to being incredibly sensitive so I feel that when something occurs in their lives it's not just over or forgotten. They are haunted for years until they lose it and "save themselves" by taking their lives in horrible yet unforgettable ways.
Well, I can easily say I do not plan to cut my ear off. In fact I am more disappointed that the depressing mood I am in has halted all of the things I was proactively chasing rather than feed into my crave to work even more. Tonight I'm going to focus on switching this overwhelming amount of painful emotions onto my work rather than myself. Wish me luck.
In celebration of complete depression, this sums up how I currently feel:
The artwork was not done by me, but done by a man named Noah kh on cghub. He's one of my most admired artists. I think this weekend I will make it a personal effort to pay homage to his amazing style and paint out exactly how I am feeling.
To check out more of Noah's amazing art:
http://noah-kh.cghub.com/
And also, Chrom:

You can find more of his work here:
http://chrom.cghub.com/