Well, I was so excited I jumped on board and ran out and bought some paints and canvas. I haven't painted for roughly 5 years now so I saw this as a great opportunity and reason to get back into that again. Below is my progress, but I have come to realize I was not only the only artist interested in donating something.... but... the guy never responded back to me so I am guessing I just got blown off. I have no idea what to do with this painting now. D:

It's not done! I may finish it this weekend though.

In between comic time I am gonna work on this for myself.

I, generally speaking was asked to design a twisted looking circus ringmaster. 

Here's what I punched out in 2 days... after work hours. Spent maybe... 12-14 hours total? See things I want to change but right now I don't have the time. Also, forgive the corner of the page, had to block out some top secret info I had on the image...

Final:

 Hahaha using... depression, is a great motivation to whip stuff out. I keep thinking of the famous quote, "Time to get the hell out of dodge!"  ^_^

Here's my progress:

While typically most artists feed off of depression, by painting their deepest emotions and feelings. For some, the depressing ghosts that follow them throughout their lives eventually catch up to them. It seems like usually depression takes out the best of them and thus ending their lives in a poetic yet terrible way.

Van Gough lost the love of his life and then cut off his own ear. There are actually dozens of masters who have just ended their lives like: Rembrandt or louis-leopold, and even Van Gough... shot himself in the chest... this is after he cut off his own ear and that's only to name a few.

But what is the cause of this. I think artists on a feeling level are just more prone to being incredibly sensitive so I feel that when something occurs in their lives it's not just over or forgotten. They are haunted for years until they lose it and "save themselves" by taking their lives in horrible yet unforgettable ways.

Well, I can easily say I do not plan to cut my ear off. In fact I am more disappointed that the depressing mood I am in has halted all of the things I was proactively chasing rather than feed into my crave to work even more. Tonight I'm going to focus on switching this overwhelming amount of painful emotions onto my work rather than myself. Wish me luck.

In celebration of complete depression, this sums up how I currently feel:

The artwork was not done by me, but done by a man named Noah kh on cghub. He's one of my most admired artists. I think this weekend I will make it a personal effort to pay homage to his amazing style and paint out exactly how I am feeling. 

To check out more of Noah's amazing art:

http://noah-kh.cghub.com/

And also, Chrom:

You can find more of his work here: 

http://chrom.cghub.com/

I currently have this common creative cold. What do I do about it? Well, my theory for this temporary disease is that as an artist we always need something new in our lives for inspiration. Right now my home life is pretty stagnant, dull, and short. So, lately I have been reaching out to the 7 corners of the universe in hopes of finding anything to rekindle that creative spark.

The worst part is I have about a pile of unfinished personal projects on my desk right here beside me, yet I can't find any drive in me to want to sit there and work on any of them. I have traveled out to the beach about 3 times in a 2 week period recently, trying to cure this disease... even though I found dozens of things inspirational and uplifting I still can't sit at this dust gathering art desk and focus. 

Perhaps, this cold is related to stress? Ironically I'd agree that I am incredibly stressed but then that sounds silly to say outloud at my laptop. I finally have the dream job I've been waiting for, bring home a nice salary, and let's face it... a warm bed to sleep in! But perhaps with all the things we get out of life, the stress that occurs with these wonders has to do with our fears of losing the things we care about the most.

How ironic, before we have what we want, we stress about wanting them... then when we have them... we stress about losing them. I conclude that I am so stressed about failing in my newly established career... that I can't do what my career requires me to do! What's that? Draw. So I think the best remedy for a cold such as Artist Block is simple... we just can't worry! We have to continue to live in the moment and take the hits as they come. :) I am going to go on another beach excursion tomorrow, this time... I'm bringing my art book with me.

When I find some more time I am going to fully color this and explore light value.